thewrathofheaven

"Concentrate on staying awake. Don't sleep."

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     Although he had been impaled clean through the abdomen with a spear, at the very least there was gratefulness in that he did not fall to a sky of arrows, in the middle of a field of corpses, struggling for life in cold solitude. Yet still it felt almost worse where he was now, for his father was by him to watch him die. Yes – he was certain that he was going to.

     At first he wanted to fight that numbing sensation, but gradually it was overcoming him, tempting him with tranquility. The pain lessened, a weight lifted from his shoulders. It was an urge to sleep, to rest off the pain; but he knew that it would be a sleep he would not be waking up from. Cao Cao’s words snapped him from his lull as steel eyes met with his. Was it a command or a plea, he wondered?

     “I suppose it’s easy to say when you don’t have a gaping wound,” he remarked with a halfhearted smirk, gaze lowering to his hand as he briefly lifted it from his wound. His smirk disappeared, replaced with a look of disappointment. Nothing but red. He released a shaky sigh and leaned his head back. He had thought that his allies covered behind him - but he should have known better. Such a simple mistake–

     “You know, Father… I never forgot your face when you wept for Zixiu and Cangshu. I told myself that either I would keep moving forward so you would never have to feel such grief again, or that I hoped you would not have the same love for me were I to perish before you.”

     There was a pause, his brows furrowing. His eyes stung, but oh did he ever fight against the tears that threatened to fall. Tears would not help make it better. It would not change anything. “I’m not going to survive this. I don’t want to die - the thought of it terrifies me more than anything. It was my mistake… I’m sorry, Father. Though it is selfish of me, I… I hope that you will forgive me for leaving you too.”

  1. thewrathofheaven said: ( i am actually crying… wtf…….. )
  2. osilentphoenix posted this

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est 2014
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